Lockdown with William
My beautiful, happy, red-haired little boy
I will always remember lockdown as a gift of time that I’d never have otherwise had, to just……..be with you. To spend the entire morning in bed together with a stack of books, you handing me one after another to read. To get experimental with breakfast because we have a bunch of questionable ingredients and hey,
we’ve got time.
To realise that football isn’t so bad when we’re both as rubbish as each other and no one else is watching.
To put on the Benny Hill theme tune and dance wildly and with total abandon in fits of laughter. And then do it again. To bake, badly together and enjoy the spoils regardless.
To love hearing you spontaneously burst into improvised song whilst pottering about in the garden. To remember to lift with the legs because you are getting so big but still want me to lift you for cuddles and
there’s nothing else I’d rather do.
To have time to listen to everything you want to tell me rather than constantly issuing a set of requests and instructions because we’re always pushed for time.
To watch you do basically the exact same jump countless times and to just about manage to respond with fresh enthusiasm every time.
Just about.
And the questions!
No, stairs don’t get cancer. I have no idea what smoke is made of my darling. Yes, sometimes I cry.
You’re the King, I’m the Queen. Costumes. No breaking character. Castles, servants, dragons, feasts. For once I have the energy to commit, for hours and you fucking love it.
To love you more with each day that passes and realise, really realise
how fleeting this time is.
To recognise that none of this cost money, was worth so much more than anything money can buy.
To resolve
not to go back to full time work once lockdown is lifted. To do something that pays the bills but doesn’t eat away at our precious mornings and evenings together.
To be forever grateful that I had the time to step back and realise that this is the best decision I could ever make for you.
My beautiful, crazy, caring boy.
To resolve not to go back to full time work once lockdown is lifted. To do something that pays the bills but doesn’t eat away at our precious mornings and evenings together.
To be forever grateful that I had the time to step back and realise that this is the best decision I could ever make for you.
My beautiful, crazy, caring boy.
I’m crying after reading this! Absolutely beautiful.
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Beautifully said ❤️
This time is indeed a gift to rediscover childhood and just to be in the moment
Lovely Han, what a great idea to do this!